date of testimony: January 16th 2018
location of testimony: Lansing, Michigan
THE COURT: All right. You wanted to say something before your statement is read?
MS. HILL: Yes.
THE COURT: You may proceed. Say whatever you need to.
MS. HILL: A couple decades ago I went to MSU Sports Medicine Clinic for knee pain that I was having and I was suffering a great deal. At that time I was going through a divorce and so I went to see Doctor Nassar and he sexually assaulted me under the guise as a medical doctor, and so because I was going through this divorce I sort of suppressed my memory of the things that he did to me by sexually assaulting me and my focus was on my children, so since my children are grown, seeing him has brought back all the pain of something that he did to me, and I always try to be strong with my children, and I can’t be that strong person any more. I often think about suicide so that I can turn off the thoughts of him, get rid of the nightmares, but I know that that’s not the answer. Go ahead.
THE COURT: Just a minute. Ma’am, you are strong. You are here. Even with someone else reading your statement, because I know it’s very emotional, and — you are still strong. Suicide means your voice has stopped.
MS. HILL: I understand.
THE COURT: It’s so important for your children, the nation, the whole world to hear the voice of the victims, to speak on behalf of the victims, to speak out there so that they know more, not to me, not to anybody, and with suicide he wins. Don’t let him be a winner. He is not a winner.
MS. HILL: No, he’s not.
THE COURT: He is not. So when you think about harming yourself and stopping your voice, that allows him to win. Please don’t do that. Send that message that we need our voices heard. We need to stay on this earth as long as God wants us here and speak out against abuse, and that’s what you’ve done, and you don’t feel strong, but look at this room. It is filled. The whole world is hearing you. They’re supporting you, but also you’ve done this publicly. That means you are strong. You’re worthwhile of being on this planet. Please stay with us.
MS. HILL: I will.
THE COURT: All right. Good. As to her statement, please.
For years I thought about ways I could have stopped you, Lawrence G Nassar, from sexually abusing more women and children. I was always beating myself up thinking about what I could have done more to stop you or even thinking it was my fault for not coming forward sooner and telling everyone how you sexually assaulted me under the guise as a MSU sports doctor.
Throughout society we were taught to trust doctors. As your former patient I trusted you, Larry. I trusted you as a doctor to help me.
Instead of helping me, you sexually abused me under the guise as my doctor. You have caused me deep-rooted pain and suffering. You put your selfish, evil needs first. You manipulated me, tricked me into trusting you. You, Larry, abused your power as a doctor to do the despicable, sexually assaulting me and others.
Because you sexually abused me it has caused me to develop PTSD. Lawrence G Nassar, you are a narcissistic psychopath. The apology that you gave at your hearing on November 22nd, 2017, to me was unbelievable. I feel that you were not sincere.
I feel that you were tired of being in jail and sorry that you got caught.
I can begin to heal now knowing that you will be locked behind bars for life. Larry, you are a menace to society.
Judge Rosemarie Aquilina, please give Lawrence G Nassar the maximum sentencing by law. Knowing that Larry will never be allowed to prey on women and children in our society again will give me a peace of mind and allow me as a survivor to begin to heal. Sincerely, Annette Hill.