date of testimony: January 22th 2018
location of testimony: Lansing, Michigan
statement read by court official Ms Liddell
Let me begin by saying how relieved I am that Mr. Nassar is finally getting the punishment he deserves. I’ve always been a believer in forgiveness, and I have tried to forgive him for what he has done to me and the other victims but I just can’t. I now have nieces and nephews, and to imagine someone doing the things that Mr. Nassar did to me to them makes me absolutely sick.
I’ve had to live with what he’s done to me for so long thinking I was crazy for thinking what he did to me was wrong. Why would a doctor do something to me that is a crime? I’ve always wondered if that was right. You grow up believing you can trust doctors. Why wouldn’t you be able to?
I am single and haven’t been in a long-term relationship because I have trouble opening up to people. I’ve always thought that there was something wrong with me. I now know that what happened to me years ago plays a huge part in who I am today. Not only do I have trouble opening up to people, but I have trouble trusting people. I quite often think the worst case scenario, which, at times, leaves me scared to death. Why date someone if they could end up doing bad things to me? It’s hard to know who you can trust these days. If you can’t trust a doctor, then whom can you trust?
In a way I feel trapped inside my own body.
Like I said, I have trouble opening up to people, that includes friends and family.
I really struggle talking to people about what has happened to me because the last thing I want is for anyone to feel sorry for me or for me to make someone feel bad.
It pains me to think about how my parents must feel. I’m sure to some extent they blame themselves for this happening to me. Yes, my dad took me to the appointment and, yes, he was in the room with me when the horrific crime took place.
There was no way he could have ever imagined that this would happen.
I know my mom has been beating herself up with who referred us to Mr. Nassar and was it one of her connections? I can start crying thinking about what my parents are going through. That’s what hurts the most.
I am not a vicious person at all. As a matter of fact, I have actually felt sorry for Mr. Nassar at times, but one last thought I would like to leave Mr. Nassar with is how would he feel if someone did these horrific crimes to his children? Victim 127.
THE COURT: Thank you. I’m hoping that her public statement helps her and her family heal.
There was nothing wrong with her. We know that.
There is everything wrong with defendant, and I hope she gets that message by listening to her sister survivors. Thank you.