Amanda Smith
It was not until recently that I put two and two together. You abused me. You violated my body. You made me feel emotions that no 14 year old should ever have to feel.
It was not until recently that I put two and two together. You abused me. You violated my body. You made me feel emotions that no 14 year old should ever have to feel.
I needed a positive male role model in my life. Nassar filled that spot for me. He has known me since my mom gave birth to me and has watched me grow up. I trusted him like a family member. There has never been a time in my life when I didn’t know Larry Nassar. But now I wish I never met him.
I have struggled with reliving these appointments, with putting my feelings into words, sharing my emotion and trying to process what happened. I trusted Larry. I believed he knew what he was doing despite me being uncomfortable. I believed the treatment would work and be beneficial.
As a medical professional I am sickened and angered by your abuse of power and notoriety for your own self gain. It took away my ability to feel safe, to be able to be intimate or enjoy human contact in any way. Your monstrous actions have taken away so much from so many.
When it was over, my 11 year old innocent mind was oblivious to what had just happened. I knew it hurt, but he was the Olympic doctor so I thought it must have helped.
To all my sisters, we need to stand, fight back, and not rest until this mess is mopped up, each and every crumb. Thank you.
You’ve ruined and compromised so many young women, and now we are here to ruin you. It’s like Kyle said, we don’t stay little girls forever, defendant, and I’m certain you will never forget that.
I became physically ill with shingles at the age of 35. Migraines, depression, panic attacks, PTSD, insomnia, and nightmares. I, too, have woken up drenched in sweat. I, too, have woken up crying in the middle of sleeping having a nightmare of the abuse I endured, nightmares of MSU silencing me over and over and over again.
I trusted you with my body and my life. I trusted you as my doctor, and I trusted you as my friend.
Every shred of admiration I had for you is gone. Every excuse I told my 12 year old self when you were penetrating me is gone. The man I thought I knew did not exist, only a selfish predator whose atrocities know no bounds. You violated the very principle of your calling; do no harm.